It looks like it has been a long time since my last post and with good reason. I kinda lost myself there for a while. Having said that, God never left or lost me...He stayed right beside me pulling me back everytime I started to go too far off the edge. I will not go through all the details of my derailment. As I have stated before, this blog is not about me, it is about how God leads me and teaches me. And wow!! Have the last few days really been revealing things for me! I have struggled with going back to school, but it never seemed to work out. I always felt like God was telling me that He would teach me and guide me, not to worry so much over formally educatng myself. This weekend I read a book that said basically the same thing. There is a whole chapter on self education. Although I cannot quote the whole chapter, here is a little of what it says: "Self-education is what you teach yourself. It is what you learn along the way so that you are constantly improving and growing....Most of life is lived after your formal education." Twelve Pillars. God always confirms what He tells me. Even though this one took a few years for me to grasp, there it is, completely spelled out for me. You will have to read the book for yourself to get the full understanding behind that.
As some of you know, God has brought me so very far in my life's journey. Some teachings through books by christian authors, some through preaching and Bible studies, etc. Wahtever form He chooses to bring it in, He never ceases to amaze me in how He teaches me and guides me. He has told me things that He has made happen. He has made them happen in me! Just a simple woman from a wreck of a family from a little bit of everywhere in the West Tennesse area. I grew up a nobody to almost everybody, yet God has a special plan for ME! Just like He has a special plan for you...if you choose to follow Him!
My latest adventure has come through a wonderful company called BeatiControl. I kinda stumbled into my own business with this company through a co-worker from my job last year. No, I am no longer there but with another school system as my day job, which is another story all together. Through BeautiControl I am finding myself again. I am learning to live, laugh, and dream again. To DREAM again! It feels so AMAZING! God is teaching me to be a leader. To quote a little from Twelve Pillars again: "The challenge of leadership is to be strong, but not rude; be kind but not weak; be bold but not a bully; be thoughtful but not lazy; be humble but not timid; be proud but not arrogant; have humor but without folly..." This business, with God's help, is teaching me to be what God needs me to be. I firmly believe that. God confirmed to me the other day through a conversation with my BeautiControl director, Terri Callen, that He is not done working on me and He has not and will not give up on me. No matter how lost I am feeling, no matter how much I have been feeling beaten down by this world. HE IS STILL HOLDING ME IN HIS EMBRACE! Not that I ever doubted Him, but I was doubting what I was to Him. I still believe that Satan has been trying hard to destroy whatever God has in store for me. Going to Nicaragua was a HUGE step in the direction God wants me to go. Satan and this world can't stand that! But with people like Terri around that are willing to allow God to use them to help people find themselves....God has a plan and He will not fail. He will always find a way through the Terri Callens in this world. Through all these amazing BeautiControl leaders that are a living proof to women everywhere that dreams can come true, women can be leaders and be very successful, and God is still in control!!!
This is just the tip of the iceburg folks. There is so much that God has been teaching me and leading me on. I don't have enough room in this blog or time to type it all up. But I can assure you that God is amazing!! And this is still only the beginning of my journey with Him!
